Words of Confusion

Another year older.......

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- Don't know if anyone really reads much of this but I got a few words to say here: wishing.......
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! Hope all will be well and have the best in the upcoming year of 2007...

- Got any new year resolutions for 2007? I probably got plenty but it's really hard to pursue it but it really doesn't hurt when you try... Just Do it! (Nike commercial, haha) anyways...

- Almost...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

wow, it's been a really really really long time since I've been here and updated my journal... It's been way over a year now... the year of 2006! hmm, what can I say about it? I guess things have been the same since I wrote in here so I really have nothing else new to say here... I can't say more now but I'm sure I will think of something else if I really need to get something off my chest... for now, just R.I.P. *sigh*

- It's a new year now!! What changes will I make in my life to improve myself better?? I still feel like I'm at the same stages and I can never recover nor work harder in what I do now... *sigh* Is there something wrong with me or something? I feel lost... I feel down, I feel depress... I feel alone!! Am I really alone? Who am I? Where do I stand? Am I still alive?

- I've been lost for sooo long... I need to find myself again but did I ever find myself before? What do I mean by again? You see, I don't think I really have any idea what I'm talking about right now... I'm sooo confuse... *sigh* =( Please, just give me a break!! I need to break lose... I need to go away... Where will I go? Where can I go?

- Sooo many questions but none of them can be answered... I have no answers to any of my questions... Am I going to be like this forever?? Why is everything collapsing on me that I seem to fall down all the time and can never get myself back up...

- I have a new job now... Will I be able to stick with this one than jumping all around all the time? Do I have any confidence in myself at all?? Why do I have the same questions over and over again in my head just like last year? Things will never change... It's 2005 now... I'm still the same like I used to be... I feel like I will never be able to build up myself... I wish I had a better chance in............ oh man, I really don't know what I want to say anymore... I've really lost myself... Please, just take me away!! I really want to go away... oh man, I'm the same... I'm never going to change... Do people really have confidence in me? I don't even have any confidence in myself... I feel such a failure... What is really going on with me? I have too much in my head now... I have no one... I'm not myself... I wish the worst to happen... Please, make it quick!! =(

- I had a pretty rough week, last week... Today seemed to be even more interesting to me... It wasn't that bad at all and I hope things will be able to get better as times flies pretty quickly... I had my moments last week and it wasn't going too well at all... I'm just really glad that I had a friend there that I was able to talk to and depend on... I don't want to go back to those days anymore... =( It just really hurts!! *sniff*

- As this week is just about to end, I hope that I can make my week worth while... I hope that there will be a lot of changes that are about to be made and I just hope that I can keep it that way or make things even more better... I just have to figure something out what to do... *sigh*

- Let's see how everything else goes... It's going pretty good so far and I hope I can keep this up or I will just go insane... I totally hate this!! =(

- So I've been thinking, what has my life become to be? Are things going well? Are things going smooth? Of course not, so then what am I doing about it? The answer is, absolutely nothing... I have no control over anything and I can't seem to do anything right now... Just can't wait to jump off the bridge and get away from all these problems... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!

- I feel really messed up inside and when I move apart and away from someone, I tend to miss them even more... What's wrong with me? I can't even stand myself, so how can anyone else stand me? Of course, no one can stand me... That's why I don't stand myself!! *sigh*

- Too much drama, too many problems... What to do??

- Why am I stressed out all the time??

- Things haven't really been going too well... I wish I had a better look at things... I'm just wondering what kind of other different things that I can do now?? I'm just more confuse by every minute that goes past by me... *sigh*

- Still looking for a job now... Anyone know anything?? Any suggestions??

- Need to keep my head straight... I feel like I'm all over the place right now!! =(